Entrepreneurship is hard and I can attest. But the rewards I want for myself are more of a need than a want. Like many Jamaicans who cannot afford normal life, but better than most who have no chance. This chance, I am taking it. Because to waste opportunity is one thing I learned not to do. Slipping up in life is not a option, I may never get these chances again.
What can I say the typical 9 to 5 job does not do much for me as it concerns my expenses. I have cut my expenses so much that food is meticulously measured. I do not eat often, some days I would eat only once per day just to save money for important future use. My mother eats though but she would prefer much more than that. She is used to grand meals when my father was working. Those days are gone now.
Going through phases of sadness and worry as time chips away, the axe of poverty making its way to the end of my life. Faith in myself falters from time to time. Was I being weak, because when I see these entrepreneurs I aspire to become such as Richard Branson and Mark Cuban, I do not see no weakness only positivity.
While I was searching for information to write a new lesson on entrepreneurship for my website I found this article on depression in entrepreneurs. Realizing that I was not alone in this constant anxiety. This and a conversation with my ex-girlfriend showed me that my mental turmoil was really created by me.
Assumptions seem to prove this why many people fake it and act like it is ok, because if they were to consider it deeply, they might lose heart and kill themselves. We have to think positively until the situation changes. Only we can make our situation change. Because the thing that I tend to forget at times is that if I was not positive my motivation to change my situation would be poor.
My positivity is the reason I am pushing myself so much and so far. At the end of the day I believe I can become the greatest entrepreneur in the world and lift my country out of its dismal position by myself, no politics, no dishonesty, no criminality. Positivity keeps me running. Dreams give me goals to run to. The financial situation gives me a reminder of what I have and what I do not have, so I can plan my run.
People would ask me why bother, I ask why not. I have so much ideas and ways I can help Jamaica. Dreams I want to achieve. In a 9 to 5 job I only work, barely any grand dreams can be archived there. The country has untapped potential, I am tired of waiting for the day when my wage can pay for my living. Because that will not happen. The truth, countries raise the minimum wage to compensate for inflation and cost of living meaning by the time you get a raise you have higher expenses anyways.
Why work for people, when I can work for myself. Sit back and count money. No, those last words were serious. There are many methods of passive income such as investments, sale of digital goods, website adsense etc. Naturally, they require some initial work and a little bit of maintenance. But trust me some of these methods allow their smart originator to literally sit back and count money.
This is what I am trying to focus on for myself as the time passes. Coming this far, I have sacrificed much, but to give up now is harder now. If something does not work I try something else but the goal has not changed. To be able to take care of my family and live happily. I made my decision long ago, I cannot turn back from it. So would you give up after so long? Stay strong, also if you go through this yourself and need someone to talk to, I am available at my email, twitter or google +. Thank you for reading.
David Shaw is a certified nerd and scum of the earth. Jamaican by birth, he enjoys long walks and the simple things in life. He is also an entrepreneur, writer and graphic designer. You can follow his mundane madness on twitter @davidcs_aw