Loneliness

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Dealing with loneliness is something I have gone through much of my entire life. To an extent I can say I have been able to deal with it so far pretty well. Though loneliness can be a thing that can rip you asunder and make you bleed white Kool-Aid.

kool-aid coming through the wall

Don’t oh ya me either I was not that lonely…

Loneliness would be possible for a person like me who is an entrepreneur. Usually our struggle is alone and not known by the wider public much less our friends. That goes for youtubers, freelancers who work at home and other professions that require some amount of solitude for an extended time period.

Loneliness feels like everyone is there but not there, like the road is lined with food but you cannot take any. A coldness runs through your veins, the only warmth is in your head because it is thinking too much. You hear the slightest things around you. I do not know if you feel like that at times, maybe that is my version of loneliness but I am sure yours is different, with us having different minds.

So how do I deal with loneliness, I actually don’t. When I feel it, I just push on as I always do or do something else. Keeping connections with people is important, because that isolation can get to you. But I will admit I am used to it by now.

So it does not faze me as much. When I was younger it made me sad and really wreaked my psyche. Finding someone to talk to was hard enough, finding someone I want to be around was difficult in that respect. To some extent I had to accept that It would be in my best interest to control my mental state instead of letting it control me.

But for short time relief I decided to go out more and seek more out of life than I was used to doing. Something fun maybe, being around people usually does not curb my loneliness having fun especially with the people I care about does.

So I just think positive and move forward. Moping leads to negativity which quickly leads to depression and you want none of that at the end of the day. So if you are feeling down, do something else. Feeling lost and lonely, call up a friend or go out somewhere and have fun.

Do not let loneliness creep into your life and have you feeling down.


David Shaw is a certified nerd and scum of the earth. Jamaican by birth, he enjoys long walks and the simple things in life. He is also an entrepreneur, writer and graphic designer. Support him on Patreon. Check out his work on his website or follow his mundane madness on twitter @davidcs_aw, google, pinterest

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Loneliness

Image of Yourself

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Image is important. For me I never considered how people look at me as a rule of thumb where I personally do not care. When I was younger I was given too much attention for being a weird nerd. So right now, I rather not get any attention at all except where it counts. Image to me is about what I can become not what society wants me to become.

In this world you are forced to believe in this rationality, you must do these things, you must live this type of life. Personally I do not care, I do my own thing living my own life. What image people make of me is irrelevant. If I know right or wrong and I think I am a great person then no argument needed.

Besides , people will sit there defining the what is and what isn’t. Remember everyone has a argument to be made about that one person who did something they know in their hearts to be good. Morales are relative, so do not try to hard to impress the public. They lived separate lives from you. They will not know where your coming from either.

So do not go by other peoples standards. Stick to your own. What you believe is more important. In that respect your image is like you brand damaging it seems almost like a bad idea. But let us be real what damages it more, losing people due to their incompatibility or you inconsistency? If they will never like you, trying to convince them is a waste of time.

Stay true to yourself and the small amount of fans you have. Stick to what you want people to see, not what society wants to see of you. Society will not care what you lose in the process. It is the same with me, Image is important to me too. It is what I define as what I want to see of myself and only me.


David Shaw is a certified nerd and scum of the earth. Jamaican by birth, he enjoys long walks and the simple things in life. He is also an entrepreneur, writer and graphic designer. Support him on Patreon Check out his work on his website or follow his mundane madness on twitter @davidcs_aw, google, pinterest

Image of Yourself

Limits

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There will be times when you need to set limits and know what you need or do not need if you get my drift. Decisions on how to limit yourself are usually the hardest decisions to make. Reason being people like to be as free as possible, limits hinder that rationale. But if you do not limit yourself what will happen?

Depending on what you are limiting, if it is a bad habit, you limiting it can decrease the bad after effects of it. An addiction is a typical thing you would like to limit. No one likes being addicted because it is the same as being under the control of the addiction.

That lack of control is what causes if not deepens depression. So your freedom in using drugs becomes your own prison. It’s a dangerous thing indeed do you not think? So freedom can be as damaging to a human as easily as oppression.

We need to find the balance that works for us. Limits and concessions are a part of that. Think of it this way you want to go out to a party but your daughter is at home what would you do? Well, you could call a babysitter and then go out. But what if you cannot get one for some reason, well then might as well stay home and enjoy time with your child.

So that limit gave you a benefit as well as a detriment. But that is life it is a balance between what you need now and what you do not need now. Making these choices help us grow and understand where responsibility is just as important as rest and relaxation.

That is life, it is about how far you have come. It not about the accomplishments but the act of still walking through the adversity, limits are weapons used to define how much mastery you have over your mind.

Fear not what you could not have done today, do what you can and be glad. There is always tomorrow.


David Shaw is a certified nerd and scum of the earth. Jamaican by birth, he enjoys long walks and the simple things in life. He is also an entrepreneur, writer and graphic designer. Support him on Patreon Check out his work on his website or follow his mundane madness on twitter @davidcs_aw, google, pinterest

Limits

Facing that Fear

fear of the ledge

When I was socially awkward I was afraid of consequences. Every time I leave my house there is this anxiety that comes with what could happen. It is the same anxiety I feel when I get a new task or project I never done before. It has to be asked, can I do it? Will I succeed?

This anxiety gripped and immobilized me in the past. Even as I grow and things change, I cannot deny that I still get scared sometimes. I was afraid of what would happen. Being used to the same old stuff happening again and again, that was my drug it kept me sane.

The fear kept me stationary never moving. Things change around me but I do not. I tried to keep the status quo that kept me feeling safe. That held me like a mother, sweet as honey, warm to the touch.

Then something hit me, how do I grow?

The thing was, if I stayed home and did leave to go outside, I would not have gotten the voluntary job. If I did not take a chance and become a freelancer I would not have this second income. If I did not try to branch out I would have never changed and grown.

Granted I am still scared but maybe that is how I grow. Think of it, courage comes from fighting what you fear. That is the truth. True courage comes from chasing your dreams. Trust me you won’t advance in life unless you overcome your fear.

Actually, it’s similar to video games. If you face your fear and fight the boss, you win you move forward and advance, you grow. If you lose, you can look at how you lost and learn from it, with that lost you improve and try again. Either way, you grow.

So, no matter how much I think about it, I have to go outside. To grow, to learn, to advance I have to leave the nest. That is what I think, that is how you control the narrative. You face your fears and battle them.


David Shaw is a certified nerd and scum of the earth. Jamaican by birth, he enjoys long walks and the simple things in life. He is also an entrepreneur, writer and graphic designer. Support him on Patreon Check out his work on his website or follow his mundane madness on twitter @davidcs_aw, google, pinterest

Facing that Fear